Monday, January 26, 2009

I wish...

I wish I had something exciting to write about. Nothing seems to be happening at the moment. I've been meaning to update for the past few days, but every time I tried to I could find the words. I feel like I have so much to say, but it just won't come out.


In other news, Ryan told me on Friday that I should stop dropping unneeded hints all the time. He knows what I want I just have to be patient. My answer? I know I don't need to drop hints, but it makes me feel productive. Like I'm doing something to get what I want instead of just waiting. I'm not good at being patient or waiting this long, I'm trying, really, its just hard. I get anxious when I don't know whats coming next, and I can't plan for it. And I don't like that I only get to see him once a week. He promised he would fix it soon, though I don't know how he plans to do that or what version of soon he was referring to.

Also, after paying rent at the end of the week I will have approximately $14 to my name. I need a job, and I really don't want to continue babysitting. I know its easy money, but I kinda want something a little more legit tax wise, and I'm kinda tired of watching bratty kids. Its tiring

I'd be fine if I didn't have to pay rent...

1 comments:

Kara said...

Me too! :( Rent blows